OMG I have to drive!

I always used to love driving. I have driven so many miles over the years, from north of Scotland to London regularly.  Sometimes I would be hitting over 1000 miles a week.  Loved it, put the music on and woohoo here we go. That was often when I got my best ideas.

Since the stroke? It’s been completely different.  I’m okay driving short distances but I haven’t done anything over 20 miles.  Now I have to go to North of Edinburgh to take my dog Zeus to the specialist. Woahhhh.  I have absolutely no confidence.

Mum said she would come with me so that there would be someone else in the car and to help with the dog after his operation. Thankfully she is a calm passenger. I didn’t even get an hour up the road before I was wanting to turn back again.

After learning on the presentation course to keep the breathing low, I kept trying this but woah! It felt like it was up around my shoulders. I was really struggling to calm myself down.  Everything going through my brain was on what could happen.  I phoned my friend Helen at the petrol station and she said she would do some distance work on me.  She does Bioenergy healing and is absolutely amazing.  So I seemed to get myself grounded and then back on the road.

Once the dog was dropped off, mum and I got something to eat and drink then I had to lie down in the car. This has been the only time that I wished I had been shorter or had bought the larger model of car!  I didn’t care, I was all squished up but I managed to get some rest, thankfully. Mum was great she just fitted in with whatever I wanted to do and just kept calm as she does.  She’s amazing.

The road home didn’t seem as bad or as stressful – not sure why – was it because it was downhill? Ha! Well, that’s another first out of the way – the longer car journey. I must have put so much stress on myself I was completely exhausted for days afterwards.